Useless

I had to drop out of school. I've been late for work 3 out of 5 days this week. I was $20 short on my rent. I'm going to be penalized by my landlords for not doing any yardwork this month. I'm doing a crappy job keeping my blog updated. My boss pretty much told me to go to hell (in not so many words) today when I asked him nicely about adjusting my schedule so that I can actually go to my one remaining class next week.

I try so hard and I get nowhere. I put in so much effort but I get no results. I just try and try and I still look like a total slacker and a failure.

My life has not changed in 5 years. Why bother trying anymore?