Stupid noise

I woke up at 9am today instead of half past noon like i intended, thanks to the people upstairs.

my eyes are burning, my head hurts, my arms feel numb because my shoulder muscles are so tight, and my stomach is upset. I've had that shaky feeling I get when I'm suddenly woken from a sound sleep for about 4 hours. I resorted to having a smoke and that cured that part...

I wonder if some of this reaction is the meds. I remember feeling shaky and vibratey before, but only if I had caffine. I don't want it to be the meds. I want them to work like they did before.

Still holding on

I went to the doctor yesterday and all but demanded he write me a scrip for celexa. he glanced through my chart and was astonished at the sheer volume of ECGs in there.

me: "Yeah I was having chest pains for no reason."

He noted that they were all normal, and so it evidently wasn't heart-related.

me: "Yeah that's what my cardiologist says too, nothing has changed with my heart in 4 years so that's good"

him: "... you have a cardiologist? why do you have a cardiologist?"


Gah, enough of the medical history just give me the durn drugs. They worked before, they'll work now, with minimal side effects.

guess what!

I'M NOT OKAY!

I'm a moron.

I finally went to sleep around 5:30am... just after I realised I had an optomitrist appointment at 11:30. Crud. Here I thought I got to sleep until 1ish. Oh well.

"I'm so tired, but I can't sleep"

I was so excited to get to finally sleep in my own bed tonight after 2 months of being not-home. Enter Insomnia. Figures

I had a Ziggy day today... left from H's house and the sky opened up. It rained so hard that I actually couldn't blink fast enough to keep it out of my eyes. I walked 1 and a half blocks and I was completely soaked to the skin. Then I got on the train and everyone else was totally dry. I guess it was just my personal rainstorm. Got home and my bro was soaked too, so it wasn't just me but it sure felt like it.