Craptastic

So my brother did something colassally stupid and I can't talk about it here because a: he hasn't talked to my parents yet and I want to give them a chance to hear it from him first. b: he hasn't told my other brother about the first colassally stupid thing he did that was related to this, and I want him to hear it from him, not me. c: it really is a horrible thing and I don't really want to share it with people outside my family.

But he hurt me a lot, and has left me feeling unsafe in my own home. I don't want to move, I hate moving. But I think I have to. Too many panic attacks over little stuff.

He and I have the same work schedule now, which means that I can just ride to and from work with him once my team moves down to the new site. Yay for that. I can then spend less than half what I have been on transit and give him the difference for gas money. That only works if I don't move though.

Ran into a friend of mine on my lunch break yesterday... and his girlfriend. I really like him, so the whole girlfriend part sucks. But we had a pleasant lunch.

For those who don't know (why am I writing as if more than 3 people ever read this? I dunno, wishful thinking, I guess), I switched from the 3-midnight shift to the 7:30am-4:30pm shift as of monday. I had one day off in between to adjust. That's probably why I can't sleep properly yet, and why I feel like crap physically. It feels bizarre to be out on my lunch break and have the sun overhead, and it feels strange to have the sun on my left instead of on my right while waiting for the bus in the morning, especially when my body is telling me it's the middle of the night. I swear I have jetlag, only I got ripped off because I never went anywhere.

Went to the doctor today (called in sick, then slept late and missed my doc altogether and had to see a generic clinic doctor) and got a refill on my celexa, also got it bumped up to 20mg from 10. I also whined about my sinuses and about how my ears won't pop when I go down the elevator from the 29th floor at work, and he gave me some free flonaze. YAY! I used to use that and it worked great so I'm glad I've got it back.

When I got my new glasses, the magnetic clipon sunglasses had a flaw so they ordered a new one under warranty for me. I just went down to pick up the replacement and discovered someone from group works there now. We did some catching up (totally against the rules) and I went on my way. I tried to put the clip on my glasses and discoverred it just doesn't fit, so I went back. Turns out they put the magnet in upside down so it was positive to positive. So they gave me my old clip back and sent away for another one.

Ok I think i'm done having insomnia now, I'd best go back to bed so i can get up for antoher day of fun-filled tech support.